When Allison first introduced me to Warren Zevon's music some years ago, I remember her saying that it had gotten her through some of the hardest times in her life. I think I just sort of smiled and nodded and took the cassette, not realizing how important it was going to be to me.
Today I drove down the road with the windows down, playing that Warren Zevon mix tape quietly so I wouldn't wake the baby in the back seat, breathing in the spring and thinking that yes, I could definitely go on another day. There's something about Warren's music that's just so raw, so cynical, and yet it still makes you smile and shake your head and think that yeah, life's like that. Rotten things happen, and you can feel like the unluckiest person in the world, but damned if you can't make a great song out of it. "I'll Sleep When I'm Dead" is on repeat in my head, and so is "Looking for the Next Best Thing". I listen to this music over and over, and it just drains away so much of the hurt and the anger and the hopelessness I feel... I can sing my lungs out, and no one is hurt.
I'm a single mom. I'm estranged from my family, and I'm in the middle of a nasty separation. I get depressed about this, often. But you know what- I have my daughter, I have friends who love me, and I have Warren. And now I'm looking for the next best thing.